Oh how I wonder...

It's interesting to me that in extreme times one find out how evil or devious one can become when needed (or wanted). Also when you something so treasured could be taken away, one can become so frantic and obsene with furry and worry. and then all at the same moment, feelings can cease for a while and things are normal. The mind is a wonderful and freaky thing. I wish I had more control of my universe. Could that ever be possible. I guess hope keeps me going. Experience is what you get when you don't get what you want. Shit I have a whole lot of experience. ;)